So what does this bird do in his gilded cage?
So I went away for college...away from Houston...away from my family and their prejudices and the baggage that came with dealing with those things...and in all honesty, I could not have been happier. Sure, there's been a lot of ups and downs, but I can say, overall, that in New Orleans I am a much happier individual...I feel more free and capable of expressing myself in non-repressive manner...I have people who love me and don't judge me for the things that I actually take pride in (my sexuality, gender, style, etc.)...and it's a wonderful feeling. Spending the first month of summer in New Orleans was honestly one of the best times of my life...I was surrounded by wonderful people and had some great experiences that just made me feel utterly...at home. But unfortunately that time had to end, and I had to return to Houston to make the necessary round of visiting the family I left behind...and coming back to it is just so strange.
I feel like a really dull and trapped version of myself. I feel like I am utterly contained by where I am. Sure, I have a car here and can go places but that still is under the approval and awareness of the parentals, since I am living with them. Now being back in this house made me realize a lot of things...I am still really dependent on my family...I don't like to admit that I am...but I am...most of my means of living still comes from them, even when I'm in New Orleans...but it's even moreso coming back here...it's like I'm that bored, jaded, confused kid that I was in high school...don't particularly enjoy that feeling...and I just don't like how I feel like I'm not me in this house. But I've tried to make compromise while I'm here without utterly destroying my already wavering psyche.
I spend a lot of time wandering...just wandering freely...finding new things...new people...making old things new...and I feel very limited here, because I have a comfort level in this house and in this city and challenging it...makes me anxious and...things are already weird here for me as is...I don't want to fuck up more what is already essentially fucked up.
But I've been trying to make the most of what I have. For the past two weeks, I've been working as a volunteer for this non-profit called The River Performing and Visual Arts Center, which is essentially an organization that provides affordable arts programs for kids, especially kids with disabilities. I started doing this four years ago as a mandatory requirement for my high school graduation, but I absolutely fell in love with the staff and the kids and the program...so I kept going back...and it really has kept me sane...because otherwise I would just be stuck at home being miserable and counting down the days till I go back to New Orleans (which I do anyways)...but I didn't want to do just that...so I actively sought out the opportunity to work there again, and they gave me it...and this next week will be the last week for their summer programs...so I'm sad...but it was a great experience as it always is, and I'm happy that I got the chance to do it.
Also, retail therapy is a wonderful thing...it's what gets me through my bored days. I also eat a lot. Which was expected when I came back to Houston...because those are the only things I really enjoy doing...anywhere, haha.
So all in all, I am making the best of what I can during the rest of my time in Houston, till I am free from the cage and jet back to New Orleans...we'll see what happens till then c:
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